Little did we know that life wasn't finished throwing us some curve balls and in late 2002 little Liam was born. We were so shocked when we found out Monique was pregnant as we had taken precautions. We were immediately thrust back into a pretty fearful state as we hoped and prayed our new baby (and Monique and I) would be spared having the challenges of Cystic Fibrosis. During the pregnancy we opted not to have any testing done as there was a risk of miscarriage. It was only a small risk but we didn't want to take any chances. We will never forget the day we got the news from the Doctor that Liam been born with Cystic Fibrosis. It was a sureal time. We just couldn't understand - Why us? Hadn't we been through enough with our Lily dying? It took us 3-4 years to really come to terms with everything. It was a steep learning curve and we knew if we were to survive this challenge, we must learn to live one day at a time, learn to control our fear, fully accept our situation and be grateful for what we had. This was a lot harder than what we thought and slowly we learnt ways and techniques to bring our lives back into balance. We've had our ups and downs with the journey that CF is and we certainly still have our moments but the work we have done on ourselves now is the safety net that stops us falling to low when things get tough. In mid 2007, we had yet another curve ball thrown at us. We were nearly finished the filming for a made for TV documentary we were a part of, about going through the contoversial process of PGD IVF to have a baby and once again we found out that Monique was pregnant. This was an almighty shock as we were contemplating doing PGD IVF so we could ensure that we could avoid having another child with CF. Once again we had to dig deep and trust that things would work out. We didn't test for CF again for the same reasons as mentioned above and settled into the 9 month journey hopeing and praying that this child would be born without CF. Mentally we were getting a lot stronger but my wife and I didn't know how we would handle the extra stresses that another CF child would invariably bring. As I write these words I am acutely aware that our beautiful son Liam will one day reads these words and ask us many questions. I have rehearsed the answer to a particular question many times in my mind as I know the day is coming when I will be saying "Listen to me honey......No one knows how long they will be here on this planet for. There are many 'healthy' people who die from all sorts of unforseen accidents or illnesses. All you have to do is focus on finding out what your purpose is here on this Earth and then do this purpose as best as you can and just let everything else take care of itself." In early 2008, little Lenny was born and we waited for a week for the testing to come back from the Lab. Just before Lenny was born I was thinking about what would unfold in the next few days when a calming voice inside me said "Dont worry, it will be fine". It was the most wonderful and reassuring feeling, as I really felt in my heart that things would be OK. Then about a week after Lenny was born I received a message on my cell phone from the Doctor. My Heart was pumping so loud and fast it felt like a double kick drum playing at a heavy metal concert! I couldn't breath properly as I pushed the buttons to listen to the message. The first thing I heard from the doctor was "It's all good" as he must have known how distraught we would have been listening to the message. My heart leapt as I felt the enormity of his words sinking in. I went and told my wife and we both hugged and stood quietly for a while letting the news wash over us. It seemed that life was finally cutting us some slack and this also meant we were now moving into a new chapter in our lives. One of the main reasons we want to share our lives with you is because if we can help you adjust to your new life with CF (or any chronic illness) in a more stress free way or help you evolve to your own Place of Miracles, where you find your own peace, follow your passions and live in abundance, we would feel that we have accomplised a part of what we are meant to be doing here on this Earth. We are at a stage now were we wouldn't change a thing that has happened to us as we wouldn't be the people we are today without those experiences. Now, we certainly wish for a cure for our beautiful son and the many others that are afflicted with this condition, but we now view whats happened in our life as a blessing - not a curse. Cystic Fibrosis has been a key part in helping us to grow and evolve as people and for that we are truly gratetful. Our angel Lily and our son Liam have taught us so much about life and we feel honoured and grateful to be their parents. I'm sure our newest addition Lenny will also prove to be another teacher for us, as some of the children born today seem to be wise beyond their years. Enjoy our Place of Miracles and we would encourage you to believe in Miracles and expect them to happen to you on a daily basis because if you dont believe in Miracles, you wont be able to recieve them when they come. Please feel free to email us if we can help in any way and if you wish to know more about how we attract Miracles into our lives, click on self awareness. Love from The O'Neills |